I’m just going to keep quiet from now on.
How am I supposed to be happy if I can’t be myself though…
Fantastic older solid wooden piece I found while thrifting, so I sanded it down and put a dark stain and thin polyurethane finish on it.
Hey, so I finally made an Etsy account :) I’ll be posting more handmade things soon…. Enjoy!
It isn’t right to put love toward someone else when you don’t have enough for yourself.
These past couple of months have honestly been the worst months I’ve had in years, and apparently it’s affecting my relationships around me and I don’t even realize it until I’ve pretty much ruined things… I’ve drifted away from my friends and I’m too emotional or apathetic at the same time toward almost everyone else. I can’t get out of this fucking pit. I haven’t had anyone or anything reliable in my life besides my job - and the only reliable thing about my job is that I still have it. I work 40 hours a week just to struggle, and I still can’t pay my bills.
I feel stupid for complaining… but everything is hitting me… from stress at work, stress from not having a steady roommate situation, figuring out how I’m going to pay my expenses, worrying if my car is going to get repossessed every damn day because I can’t make payments, and on top of that my dad gets cancer this year… like… why… why is it that I have to work so fucking hard to only be getting deeper into the ground… why… :’(
I have been rummaging through the deep, dark hidden files of my laptop from years ago…
and I think I stumbled across the single handed most embarrassing video of myself ever… and not only is the content embarrassing, but the fact that I actually took the time and effort to edit such a video together is what makes it even worse…
Even by my friends. what the fuck.
So leave me messages that you’d want me to either answer or ask me things you’d want me to talk about in general!
When I get a good amount of messages, I will start filming :D